Since now i really can’t sleep i’ll add somethin else to this. Do you fucking realize how much documented evidence exists about ghosts? You know how many of those ghosts appear to be sad, in pain, or pissed the fuck off? I don’t think i’ve heard one happy ghost and ive listened to hours of shit. Think about that shit. That’s some fucked up shit. Do u wanna run the risk of being stuck in this fucking shit in some kind of timeless lost existence feeling as bad as you feel for who knows how long? Fuuuuck that shit. I can’t stop thinking about my friend being stuck like that. It’s kept me awake for more than 48 hrs. I believe that shit. There’s so much evidence. I think u get stuck here if it aint your time. You might feel stuck but you aint stuck like that. Fight that fucking depression off. That shit is your enemy. Survive mother fucker

I guarantee that death will be much lonelier than life ever could be.

I know that you don't want to die because you came here to tell us. You want to be helped. Plenty of people here are willing to help. Problem is many people here probably don't know how to help because they also struggle with problems they don't know how to fix. Professional help may be the best option while connecting with people on here so you don't become isolated. It's important not to isolate yourself. It's important that you try to get out and connect. You're not alone. Plenty of people here deal with depression, suicidal thoughts, mental illness and trauma. I've personally been diagnosed with PTSD the beginning of last year which feeds my bipolar disorder and puts my head in dark places where I feel the abysmal despondency that you're probably feeling. So you're not alone in that darkness. You're also not weak for being in this state. You're not ungrateful and shouldn't feel guilty for how you feel no matter how much worse it could be. I can't guarantee it gets better, nobody can, that's just a lie people tell you and themselves. It could get better, though. There's a possibility that something amazing happens and you'd essentially deny yourself that wonderful moment in life because of this heartbreak over one person. The world is a big place with plenty of people in it. If this one person could make you feel something, then there has to be plenty of others that could make you feel the way that she used to. I've always thought of love as an experience rather than something you can capture or own. It's never too late to experience it again, just not with the same person. Unless you die. If you die you're guaranteeing that you'll never feel it again.

Yo @Zero, don't give up man, especially over a bitch. We weren't engaged, but, I was with a girl in college that I thought I was going to marry and it was only a matter of time. I found out she was cheating on me and was devastated at the time. 

But guess what? That was one of the best things to ever happen to me. Looking back, that bitch sucked and I just didn't really know any better. After being broken up with her for a while, I starting seeing someone else. That person is now my wife and we've been together for about 13 years now including dating. Actually going through dating that first bitch made me appreciate my wife so much when she came along because she actually respected me and everything wasn't all about her. Mind blowing, right? What seemed like doom and gloom at the time was really dodging a bullet, just takes time to get there. 

And outside of the bitch, you mentioned not having any friends or family. I think the previous replies here go to show there is family.  Sad about not having friends? Not to be corny but we are in the days of "fite back", misspellings and all. So what can you do? Find activities and things you can participate in your area. For example, join a Juggalo facebook group or something and see about meeting up with some local Juggalos. I live in a small ass rural town in TN but even still, there are always things going on like book clubs, recreational sports, events at the local park...or hell, I just like going out hiking on the trails and smoking buds out in the woods chilling by myself sometimes. 

Point being, it's perfectly ok and natural to feel down that your fiance is gone. But it's not game over, you will eventually see it as a positive. Nobody should be in a relationship with somebody that isn't totally committed to them. Again, with full due respect to the shittiness of your fiance leaving, at least you guys weren't married yet.

Another real quick story just came to mind. I have a friend who was dating this bitch for over 4 years, they've moved to 2 different states together, the whole nine. He was going to ask her to marry her. Then what? He found out she was banging other dudes basically the whole time.  So that relationship ended a few years ago and of course it took him some time to get over the anger and sadness from ending a long term relationship, but he will be the first to tell you that it was better shit went down then as opposed to after getting married. And now? He's dating a very cool girl that will quite likely NOT be going and banging other dudes.

Shit works out man. Feel what you need to feel now, know that it's ok, but also know that your life doesn't stop here or now. 

I've decided to haunt u, @Zero

There is no escape. 

YouTube Video BONUS AND EXTENDED SCENES — "MEDIEVAL LAND FUN-TIME WORLD"

So, why are my YouTube links not showing the videos anymore? Is Yaboiron behind this?

krunkazphuk said

Old Mr 

said
So, why are my YouTube links not showing the videos anymore?..

It's hit-or-miss lately (much like ur dick). Maybe Scottie's doing upgrades. And my heart's platinum.

@Zero

Have u seen the suicide scene from A Scanner Darkly ? 

YouTube Video Freck suicide trip scene  

My gorgeous dick is hitting on all fronts. Got laid today, actually. Not your mom for once!! She calls me her big teddy bear.. rawwr.. I chase her around in my underwear.

I didn't click the link but I assume that it's where the guy from "Dazed and Confused" takes so much Substance B that he goes on an insane permanent trip while an otherworldly being reads him his sins forever. At least he got a good wine.

Krunk, Philip K. Dick was buried in this weird little Colorado town that I now call home.

P.S.

U have my blessing to fuck her with a bowling pin (as long as it's fully loaded):

Drunkalo said

I'm not against ur village, LimpyButtholeLemur. I've done it solids for years. When some of its bitchass residents spray this place and play "I'm more Juggalo than u r cuz REASONS", however, I will burn that motherfucker down. 

@Zero

Do u like fireworks?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uaeN56otmA

YouTube Video Blaze Ya Dead Homie - Let It Burn