Old Mr Dangerous said

Movies are weird. I have this defense thing where I giggle while I'm tearing up. Its fucking terrible! Were watching sappy shit on TV and I start chuckling. I like movies where all the broken pieces work out. The mrs gets me, I get me, my family does a little, but not many other people understand it.

'I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral, cant understand what I mean? Well you soon will.'

the_omega_smack said

Mastiffs and large breed dogs have hip problems. I've seen them so bad they sit in their own excrement cause they cant move 10 feet to the door. Losing my little girl would be the death of me too. I feel you here.

Noah Fence said

Again my friend, you have my condolences. Hope it gets easier for you man.

Thank you fellas

Enjoy your movie pal, have a good one.

When angels deserve to die

It's strange that at the end he still enjoyed the water. He got his breath, he could stretch his legs, things semi made sense.

But he still enjoyed that water.

He wasn't free, yet he was comfortably bound.

Kudos for the imagery.

Drunkalo said
It's strange that at the end he still enjoyed the water. He got his breath, he could stretch his legs, things semi made sense.

But he still enjoyed that water.

He wasn't free, yet he was comfortably bound.

Kudos for the imagery.  

In the second and third times that he performed the piece, he pulled himself all the way out of the water. I think the first time he just wasn't sure how to end it. You can kinda see him looking around before people are like oh okay it's done and start clapping. This was his first performance piece, if I remember correctly.

In the second iteration of this, he climbed out and took a bow. In the third performance he climbed out and as this black ink began to seep in, and turn the water pitch black. It was really powerful. I wish he had had that one recorded. 

the_omega_smack said
last time I cried was as a wrote about last time I cried

I fucking miss that dog  

I'm already not looking forward to having another dog. This is the one I want to love forever and feel sorrow over. 

Do you have thoughts of having another?

Noah Fence said

In the second and third times that he performed the piece, he pulled himself all the way out of the water. I think the first time he just wasn't sure how to end it. You can kinda see him looking around before people are like oh okay it's done and start clapping. This was his first performance piece, if I remember correctly.

In the second iteration of this, he climbed out and took a bow. In the third performance he climbed out and as this black ink began to seep in, and turn the water pitch black. It was really powerful. I wish he had had that one recorded.   

Not to discredit your friend but some forms of art are only done once. Him having done it multiple times seems odd like he's waiting for the proper response. Possibly a learning artist's stance as he's evolving. I dont know how to take the different endings of a visual artist. Jeff Dunham can alter his punctuated words accordingly per crowd. But Michaelangelo can never change the sistene chapel.

Drunkalo said

I'm already not looking forward to having another dog. This is the one I want to love forever and feel sorrow over. 

Do you have thoughts of having another?

Noah Fence said

In the second and third times that he performed the piece, he pulled himself all the way out of the water. I think the first time he just wasn't sure how to end it. You can kinda see him looking around before people are like oh okay it's done and start clapping. This was his first performance piece, if I remember correctly.
In the second iteration of this, he climbed out and took a bow. In the third performance he climbed out and as this black ink began to seep in, and turn the water pitch black. It was really powerful. I wish he had had that one recorded.   

Not to discredit your friend but some forms of art are only done once. Him having done it multiple times seems odd like he's waiting for the proper response. Possibly a learning artist's stance as he's evolving. I dont know how to take the different endings of a visual artist. Jeff Dunham can alter his punctuated words accordingly per crowd. But Michaelangelo can never change the sistene chapel.  

I wish I could remember the guys name, but theres this painter who literally will go into galleries showing his work, and change them. He never felt finished.

David did this performance three times, not to get a different reaction but because he was learning. the first time he did it was in a classroom setting. The second was at a show. And the final one was in an exhibition that he was chosen for. The slight changes were a result of his continuing to think about the work. Think of them as drafts to an essay. With performance, you often have to do the thing to see how it goes. Just like Michaelangelo sketches, multiple compositions, and then sketches on the surface of what ever he's painting, and then changes his paintings once the paint is laid down. 

Funny enough the last few times i cried are all related to the same bullshit that happened to me almost a decade ago.

So, i was dating this girl who was super cute. But super insecure. Like, she'd cry for hours, after spending 30 minutes begging me to tell her what hair color i preferred, i told her it didnt really matter to me but she wouldnt let it go, i told her i prefer black hair, she was a blonde, she didnt take it well. She also really, really wanted a kid. And ended up cheating on me at a party she went top, letting everyone there fuck her until she got pregnant.

So, a few years ago i was reading American Gods by neil gaiman and just couldnt get passed the funeral scene.

Then last year i was watching some french movie for a film class, i forget the name, but one character tells another about a time she cheated on her husband, got pregnant and got an abortion.

Those two things for some reason just put me right back in that mental place.

First off let's give this thread a theme song...

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Last time I cried?

Well i did spend 2019 in hell and developed a disorder I thought was complete bullshit, panic attacks, so quite a bit of 2019 had its moments...and the worst was the last few months since mid October, I cried daily.  I averaged 2 hours a night of sleep, weed wasnt doing shit for me so I drank hard.  Now my life is completely upside down and the only thing that isn't drastically different is my "task" at work.  The last three months were a waking nightmare, I only felt sadness and anger, nothing else mentally or physically...its like I completely gave up and started to deteriorate, I lost 40 pounds in a month and a half, lost feelings in extremities..everyday I felt like the song falling apart on tmdp... everything was just different shades of grey shadowy and watery, kinda like that movie shrooms when ever someone is about to die.  I would go and put myself into situations to try to be happy like enjoy nature, travel outta state, eat at new places, but nothing would bring a smile to my face...I even changed alot of my daily bad habits, but still shit would only get worse...the only thing that helped was getting lost in the music

I was able to take some of this negativity and make some positive changes in my life, I now live in a house instead of apartment, I have a vehicle, im the boss at work, I was able to quit drinking monster energy drinks(I drank atleast 3 green 16 oz. Cans a day by lunch time) and most importantly I was able to quit them damn dirt sticks cigarettes!  For some reason ever since the 2nd of this month my tears have been of joy and happiness.  I prolly cry tears.of joy daily, a true result of changing things in your life, even if you dont know what the end result is gonna be just do it...like violent j said at the 2016 seminar, just take a negative of yours and do something about it, #17in gnome sayin?

And now here I am....the last 2 weeks have been really great, I see color in everything vividly, I can get high off weed again and I can feel while I'm fucking again, life is really good sitting on cloud 17, which is where my journey should end, on a high note, with the vision of a satellite...fuck being cliche and ending on a low...that's exactly what "they" would want, especially since the movies out at that time was IT 2 and the joker.  I'm a juggalo and imma die proud of myself!

I'd like to thank everyone who I have interacted with, positively or negatively, yall helped me in more ways than you could ever know, thank you.  And a huge thank you to the insane clown posse, they are true masters of the craft and affected me the most in this plane of existence. Thank you vj and s2d for continously providing the "outcast" with amazing lifetime memories, yall changed more lives than tobacco and alcohol combined, yall are the antidrug and if anyone is to ever ask what the opposite of Hitler was/is, the answer better be ICP!...and btw, yall skooled the fuck outta putting clues out there for the 2nd 5th jokers card...ninjas are gonna be dancing in diamond rain once again once the next card comes out and ninjas go back to fred...or should I say the beginning of fred?  Yall are fucking geniuses and totally out did yourselves this time around!  Thank you for giving soooooo much to those who have soooooo little.

And here is one final 💎💎💎💎💎💎Fresh🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃Flava🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄Friday

This little diddy brought me some smiles during my darkest hours, hopefully it will help you smile like it did me!

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