Well, to be honest, I really ment it when I said I belive in juggalo family. & I really ment it when I said its all I have to belive in. You 2 ninjas, Ill & Warlock, arent the other ninjas who talk about this & yall arent the only ones saying that the family thing is stupied & ruined juggalos, & its really fuckin with my head. Ninjas like CPN on youtube make videos about this kind of shit saying that. Im not saying that yall are pissin me off or offending me, but its really fuckin with my head, like, when you have faith in something so much, then you find out the whole time that its a lie, I feel like that. I guess it nobodies fault but my own. Im really fuckin depressed man, Ive been down & out for a while now, I cant sleep at night cause of insomina, I dont mean to rant about this, I know this is prolly annoing, but I dont know where to go guys. I now dont belive in the one thing I always belived in & helped me keep going when I lost faith in everything else, I thought I always had the family. But I guess Im starting to reliase that I dont & it hurts man. I dont know what to do. Ive belived in the family sence Lotus did the song "Juggalo Family" & that era came in. I put so much faith into it, so much of myself into it. Idk, I'll shut the fuck up now, I prolly just seem pathtic to you guys