this life is fucking ridiculous. politicians are all corrupt, bunch of murdering bastards. everything i do is wrong or imperfect. i'm sick and tired of hearing people tell me it's not good enough or i need to do less of this and more of that. i'm fucking tired of trolls on the internet saying terrible shit to people and not considering how their hateful words might affect that person. i'm sick of trying to lose weight by exercising and eating better but never losing a decent amount of weight. 2 weeks of dieting and i lost 5 pounds. whoop dee fucking doo. im sick of hearing about coronavirus, im sick of hearing people saying it's been blown out of proportion while the news says otherwise. who the fuck can you believe anymore? but if it isn't coronavirus, it's assholes walking into schools and other public places and shooting everybody up and then offing themselves before they can get arrested. don't sit in the sun too long, it'll give you cancer, drinking too much milk gives you kidney stones, i mean, fuck. kiss my fucking ass. 

i won't lie. sometimes i just want to die. or maybe just runaway from everything i know now and start over somewhere else. but i'm sure it would just be the same shit everywhere. so what's the point? all grown up and medicated. people above you pointing their middle fingers down at you because they think they're superior. if i could the the fire in my soul and unleash it on the world, there'd be nothing left.