“Entertainment is changin’, intertwinin’ with gangsta’s In the land of the killers, a sinner’s mind is a sanctum Holy or unholy, only have one homie”

 that eminem line always comes to mind whenever i think about my friend circumstances.. ive had a lot of acquaintances & people i was cool with over the years with school & everything but truthfully ive always only had one main friend.. so it was definitely always easy to pick a best friend haha moving to new mexico i found a new one who’s much downer than my previous one in my previous state.. & its def easy for a girlfriend to become a close friend but being single for almost 2 yrs now i really just have one homie as usual to my life.. definitely far from a social butterfly.. ive always been quiet & soft spoken.. which is somethin ive been workin on these past few years..

wasnt ever friends with the people I grew up/ went to school with so I got the same 6 ive had since highschool

plus a huge family and we all kick it with each other  and the all kinda got

that certain mindset they could go to the Gathering and fit right in

only ever personally known a hand full of other Juggalos but none are around anymore

I only have one REAL homie. I have only ever had 6 close friends in my life, Devin Justice Justin Daxton Farber and Jake. Jake is my only real homie left. everyone else barely ever talks to me. Jake on the other hand is at my house every weekend almost and went with me to the gathering. He’s a chill dude. Also my littler brother. Those are my best friends, Jake and my brother. I would count my girlfriend as a best friend, but I don’t consider it the same. Any who, all I really do is work, chill with my lady, play call of duty, and on the weekends hang out with my brother or jake or both. And that’s great for me. Actually, on a day to day basis you guys are all my social outlet. And i love ya for it.

The Company You Keep is a great movie.  Robert Redford and Shia LaBeouf

Speaking of murdering ex cons, the dude i used to get opanas from got barred out and blew his best friends head off with a shotgun. Didnt remember any of it. Thats the only guy ive ever been scared of. Super nice dude and all but nutty as fuck. Im with ltb though this is my social community. I just wish there were more of us.  

on a side note there has been so little trolling over the past few weeks. Beautiful

I have a few people I still kick it with, I mainly just kick it with stoners and the very few Juggalos there are left out here. I stopped talkin to a lot of people. A lot of people stopped talkin to me, They have their own lives and don’t want me a part of it. A lot of my friends used to steal from me, my parents, and my sister. and my brother was locked up for a good part of my life so he was never around. now he just bugs the fuck out of me all the time. I used to kick it with a lot of gangbangers and ex cons, They would get locked up almost every other day, I got away from that. Ive lived a fuckin lifetime in my 30 yrs. Now I just kick it with my lil sis and her boyfriend, His brother and his wife, my Mexican brother from another mother when hes not workin. and my homie J who ive known for 20 yrs.   

OCJ.

Old Mr Dangerous said
Who do you hang with?

 

I know it changes as we get older. I used to be the guy that hung with anyone, regardless the race, gender, level of retardation lol… After moving back to my home state after a few years, I’ve gradually kicked almost every oldschool homie out of my life. Usually for them sucking at life. Chased one off my porch with a hammer couple years ago. This is what happens I suppose.

Always been a loner at heart. Nowadays I spend my little free time with my wife and daughter. Occasionally my recently pussy-whipped friend will stop by, play some Mario 2 & 3, have some brews, swap some Strange Music. I’ll take my daughter to my dad’s in the country to visit, maybe watch football or fish, help with chores. My mother will visit for a couple days then go home. What I’m saying is that every party I throw gets smaller and smaller.

We rely on friends (I always assumed, anyway) to be there for us, to accept most of our differences, not talk too hatefully about us. Certainly we don’t expect “friends” to try and sabotage us. But in my experience, it has happened. More than once. They never fully succeed, but there are memory scars. It’s all a learning experience, and like Wayne says, “I’m a little older, a little wiser” ahahaha…

So what’s your current social situation? It ain’t any of my fucking business but I’m curious as to other folks. I work 2 jobs seven days a week so I don’t really have time for many people anyway, but I used to be surrounded by friends. Ya’ll hermits? Ya’ll social motherfucking butterflies? Ya’ll only talk to your stuffed animals? Let’s hear it.

Pretty much the same situation as you. When me and my woman got together we basically just stopped seeing any of our friends and were just content to be around each other all the time. Been that way for six years this Saturday. 

We have a couple friends here and there that we still stay in contact with, the few people that have shown to be worth having around, but for the most part I guess I’m a family man. 

growing up, we always ran with a big crew. did the normal teenager shit,fought, each other over dumb shit,  robbed cars, smoked weed,hung on the corner daily (before facebook,cell phones, ect), drinking parties in the woods .

after high school, the crew was the same, except for 10-15 of us on the corner it would be like 4-8, and for less and less time each year, we kinda cliqued up, but i think thats cause most cars only have 4 comfortable seats. we still got together, and mixed matched who we hung with out the original crew.

i think my peeps i was with on a daily, were the 1st to go down the shit road of opiate addiction. there was 4 of us that got fucked up all the time, 1st one fell out after about 2 years after highschool. started robing everyone, borrowing money then M.I.A.

About a year after that, is when me and my boy realized we was addictied. he started to rob and steal off everyone, work, family, friends. i was super fucked up on shit myself, but i always hustled something. selling weed was an everyday thing to most us. once i got hooked, i started buying all the pain pills around. every single one in one scoop.

here is where my dickhead came out. i basically had 80% of the pain pills that my people were able to get, but even though, i got em cheaper than we ever did when buying 1 or 2. I raised the price of the pill market in town. i use to lie when people called for a pill, and say i only got 1-2 left, and someone is already bout to buy em, for 30$, just so i could get my friends to offer 35$. dam well knowing i got like 30-40 pills, but i did it to everyone that called for em, all day every time. i dont feel bad bout doing that to people who were just licks, but before i got addicted, i wouldnt even try and make a dollar off my people. those pills fucked my head up real bad, my additude, and focus on life, for the worst.

its like 12 years after high school, i got 2 boys left that i can depend on, and trust. call for a favor like its nothing. i been off opiates for over 5 years. i had to cut ties with everyone for years,i just couldnt be around the old crew at all, or anyone getting high off pills. i played warcraft for like a year and a half straight,(i played wow off and on for years previously) only hung out online. my friends were online. i think i gained like 70 pounds, acired strecth marks all over, and all that

eventually i started going out to bars solo, i became good friends with a few bartenders. i chilled with the bartenders, and all their friends. i never hung out with all girls before, but the girls became my best friends for a decent while.

guys and girls can be just friends. you will have sex with 90% of your female friends, at least i did. what i learned with a clique of girls, you only have to tell one of them something, then the other 15 know it at lightning speed. they all knew i was packing, and i wish they didnt. well, i wish they ALL didnt know. but ima nice guy, so i fucked a couple as a favor to my female friend.

now the girls are all getting shady as fuck, fucked up on adderal. its like the same shit all over again, just a different drug. i definitley eat adderal myself, but i know when its time to pull myself back, because of previous addictions. so im branching out again.

i been kicking it with alot of juggalos lately. outside of concerts. when u go to as many concerts as i have, u start to see the same people every show, in your city. neighboring citys, gatherings. and i love to know i can go to a show by myself, and know like 10 juggalos, at least. recently ive been kicking it with juggalos that ive met threw concerts. which is awesome. when i chilled with the girls daily, all they did was bitch about having to hear juggalo music. o wait, they did like the neden game. but that dont even count.

when it comes down to it, i kick it with several of the guys from the original crew, from the corner. the girls never go away as a friend. from what ive seen, girls do not get mad at each other for ever, couple months and their friends. dudes hold grudges.